Once I was sure this was going to be an easy run. With you. I was sure I'd leave you in the d u s t. I'd date you for a few months. Have easy companionship, easy cuddling, easy...whatever else.


then you surprised me. you silently caught up with me. and passed me. and won.



I say I'm happier now. and I am. in some ways.


but I miss things about you I thought would be easy to live without.



I miss feeling like I was incredibly desirable. and comforting. and amusing. and sweet. and cute.




I don't feel unwanted. because I'm not.




but I miss the way you wanted me.
I miss the way you held me.
I miss the way you held me up when it was too hard for me to do it myself.




I've gotten into some weird stuff since you ended things.


I'd like to hope you're happy, but I don't really.



Let me get happy first, then you'll have your chance.





The least you can do is give me a headstart.